The Way I Found Life

I am a person who always find difficult to find what I myself like. I was never the best in anything as far as I know so I could never found out what I like and what s the thing that I am good at. Only thing positive that I could find out in me is that I would not give up at any cost even if I come last in the race. I would just be happy for at least completing it. I just went on experimenting with my life in every point ( sometimes it went good, sometimes ok.. and many times I almost have to go inside the earth to hide myself..) . I would not say that I learned from these experience and never committed the wrong thing again. Nope and never. The thing is I always had a different thing to experiment with and never came across the same situation again and that my world the best. I did all the foolish things and mostly made all the shortcuts that made my life terrible in those times. I was a girl who tried very hard to even pass the monthly tests which I could make only often n that too with a lot of efforts. Since I was not good in studies doesn’t mean that I was surrounded by a group of friends and was rocking. No I was the worst in that too. There will be only a few persons in class who could even remember my name .I had only one or two friends on my side with whom I could share things and luckily I had them always in my side. I enjoyed life in all the way I could with them. Then came the end of school days and I was the same as ever. I couldn’t find out anything seriously of my liking. I joined a college out of no choice where I was to continue for the next three years. I was nearly dead. This was the only time in my life when I was felt alone (I was a hostelite).This was the only time with no friends n family members. Only thing I could think was my old happy days and this too went only for a short period. These were the days were I could analyze myself, of what I really liked and honestly this was the toughest thing I ever faced in my entire life. I was very happy for myself. And again I was back to life. It was then I could realize this is the life. Allways changing. Answer for everything lies inside you, so always peek inside yourself frequently and have a open heart to all who/what comes in your life.